My past

Nuni,

I was lost in darkness a few years ago
The world was gloomy and i was just a shadow
I creep in the depths of night in silent
Not knowing what to say or what to do

I used to cry alone in my bed
my soul was lost and my heart was crushed
Hugging my bear ilos, i wept my tears
and i saw my hopes all drained and flushed

Maybe i wasnt suicidal but i could have been
my thoughts was of death and was of pain
for then i was numb, i couldnt feel
i wonder if i was actually even sane

i go through life alone and isolated
i learn to be independent and to be autonomous
i hardly trust anyone, i rarely have friends
i was mostly know as i was infamous

i was known to do things as i like
and known to have things my way
most of the time i wouldnt mind, i wouldnt care
but other days it was tough, i felt dark and grey

That was my past, my sorrow and despair,
i hardened my heart to stand on my own
i may look tough and i may look cold
but the pool of tears, that wasnt shown

i dun mind now, i dont need pity
i'll continue doing things as i please
it maybe sad, it maybe pathetic
but its only thing that make me feel at ease

hurm.. i dont know what else to do with this one.. my head is blank and i cant think of anything. this is crap anyways.. sigh.

love,
lin