Another lame attempt for an apology

To my dearest nouri,

They were times we were happy
And i see the joy on your face
we were young, we were joyful, and oh, how we were merry
but those days were gone and we now seem out of place

I used to laugh in glee being with you,
you're my joker man, my clown with a really big nose
You should understand i never meant to hurt you
but with an ego like mine, not sadness but anger arose.

its a stab in the heart for us to be apart
how i long to go home and to be by your side
this long months away from you had been really hard
and i still have to wait for a few years untill i'll be your bride

This waiting and distance becomes our foe
at times it makes me forget how i feel when we were together
how you used to make me shine and make me glow
and if i was sad and cried, you can make me feel so much better

Now i sometimes forget, the bliss we used to own
And when works starts to pile up, i will start to moan
i will forget to treat you nicely which you should had deserve
and one or twice, i probably get on your nerves

im sorry for all the pain you had to bear
maybe i havent shown you,
but you should know that i really care
my heart still bleeds when i see you sad
though most of the times it was because i was mad

im grateful for how you still hold firm on the ground
you didnt squeak or either make any sound,
you shut your sorrow and distress away from me
when you could have leave me and set yourself free

You should know that my heart will always belong to you
and i will always love you no matter what you do
and when im angry or moody, it doesnt mean that i didnt care
i guess its just another phase you would probably have to bear

we will have to try hard to make this work
and i will try my best not to act like a jerk
i hope you forgive me for all the things i have done
and i will try my best to be much more fun

we will smile and laugh again hopefully one day
to all the stupid, crazy jokes you have to say
and so, i hope you accept this crappy poetry
as my another lame attempt for an apology

Loving you each passing second,
Lin