Have I told you lately that I love you?

To my dearest Nouri.

I love you. There's no one in the world that I love more than you. I cant believe there will be a point in time that i miss someone more than I miss my family or my mother but you surely surpassed that.

I wanna go back home. I want to be with you. I cant think straight and I'm dysfunctional at the moment. I've been staring at computer for three hours now, back and forth from my computer to my book and i havent read anything yet. Somehow i've become emotional again tonight. Although, you should be proud, I havent shed a tear for a while now :) I think thats a big accomplishment.

I've decided. I dont want to go anywhere during fall or winter break. I just wanna stay on campus, apply for some job or just chill around. Just winter will be a little bit of a problem trying to find a place to live but i can figure that out later. Im waiting for you to come next year and save this damsel from distress. I dont think I'll enjoy going places as much as i go with you. We will go to our pre-honeymoon again like we did in Malaysia. (we have so many pre-honemoon :P) All those places i went with you, I miss that. We should go to Kinabalu again, maybe as a family later on :) And then, maybe, just maybe, we can try conquering the everest. Haha.

Honey,
I'm loving you more and more each day. You're the sweetest, most adorable, most caring, the funniest, not to mention annoying but i love you for that too :) It has been two months that i havent seen you and its been killing me. I miss you.

I miss seeing how your face glows when I reach section 17 bus station when you have been waiting patiently sometimes over an hour or two.

I miss how i spend every moment out of akasia with you. You will wait by the gate, we go out and you will send me back for every single day.

I miss how we tend to finish each other's sentences. we still do that over the messenger but i miss talking to you face to face.

I miss how you will try to cater to my everything and how im so bad of taking advantage of that but you still love anyway.

I miss the times when we're standing in the ktm and you silently kiss above my head and think i didnt notice.

I miss how we will go to pizza hut and share our seafood lasagna :) and i always feed you the last bite.

I miss how you will deny being gay when i say you are. (you're not gay, i know)

I miss how you deny you are gedik when you know you are being gedik :)

I miss the times when you get all excited when we go out to have fun.

I miss the times we will talk about the future, our hopes and dreams.

I miss spending time in the library with you trying to finish the crossword puzzle of the month together and reading readers digest.

I miss stepping on your shoe with my high heels :) Btw, thanks for the high heels i love them but i dont wear them here :(

I miss talking to you on the phone even when you are actually beside me. (gotta love family plan!)

I miss watching movies with you when you will just stare at me while i watch the big screen. You're so sweet.

I miss when you try to make fun of me but quickly stop when i make a sad face.

I miss when you ask for forgiveness thinking that I'm mad at you for making fun at me when im actually laughing in the inside.

Hope you know that i really, really, so much, love you.. It's 12 now.. Im gonna wait for you to come online till 1 before i'll head for the books. I know you are out today but you didnt tell me when you'll be back. So, i'll just wait for a while.

Loving you,
Lin